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I am really having bad days this week. I've really, really learned the importance of people around who love me for what I am, not because they see me as a joker who tells joke to them and make them laugh. I've learned who those people are. But I have to say to people that I know for a long time disappointed me. But there were some newer people who befriended me, and when things got too hard, they weren't there. I received a lot of negative feedbacks about me. About my life, my self, and everything that I posses. I almost fail in every quizzes and tests. I'm getting only passing scores. Yet they're not enough for me. I really wanted to stand up again and reach my goal. But I can't do those. I'm am in a bad place emotionally. I began finding myself. I'm doing contacts with my friends---- FAKE FRIENDS hoping that they can help me with my struggles. But they just ignore and laugh at me. Like they don't care. I just can't trust anyone anymore. I've been busy taking care of everything else. I can't even make assignments at home, but do them in school. My teachers almost hate me for unknown reason. And my project which I was working for 2 weeks, was not accepted by my teacher which added my burden. It's just like I'm in a cage and wanted to go out. I always listen on my inspiration song Hero since childhood 'til now. Hoping that a hero comes and save me. But now I knew that the only thing that can save me is my self. Sometimes you have to go through difficult stuff, either to learn a lesson or maybe reconnect with something that has slipped away a bit. But that's how life is. You may keep getting hit, but you have to just keep on standing up again. I'm the only person who can save my life, by having hope and faith. But friends — REAL FRIENDS, like the ones who supported me through all the drama and turmoil of the past — they mean a lot. They're the people who really matter.
I am really having bad days this week. I've really, really learned the importance of people around who love me for what I am, not because they see me as a joker who tells joke to them and make them laugh. I've learned who those people are. But I have to say to people that I know for a long time disappointed me. But there were some newer people who befriended me, and when things got too hard, they weren't there. I received a lot of negative feedbacks about me. About my life, my self, and everything that I posses. I almost fail in every quizzes and tests. I'm getting only passing scores. Yet they're not enough for me. I really wanted to stand up again and reach my goal. But I can't do those. I'm am in a bad place emotionally. I began finding myself. I'm doing contacts with my friends---- FAKE FRIENDS hoping that they can help me with my struggles. But they just ignore and laugh at me. Like they don't care. I just can't trust anyone anymore. I've been busy taking care of everything else. I can't even make assignments at home, but do them in school. My teachers almost hate me for unknown reason. And my project which I was working for 2 weeks, was not accepted by my teacher which added my burden. It's just like I'm in a cage and wanted to go out. I always listen on my inspiration song Hero since childhood 'til now. Hoping that a hero comes and save me. But now I knew that the only thing that can save me is my self. Sometimes you have to go through difficult stuff, either to learn a lesson or maybe reconnect with something that has slipped away a bit. But that's how life is. You may keep getting hit, but you have to just keep on standing up again. I'm the only person who can save my life, by having hope and faith. But friends — REAL FRIENDS, like the ones who supported me through all the drama and turmoil of the past — they mean a lot. They're the people who really matter.
1 comments:
hi pao..first of all i would like to thank u for following my blog.i'm quite new..hope u would comment it.
yeah,i know what u feel.i always listen to my friend's problems.i haven't experienced it yet but i could feel her pain.her best friend in the whole world stabbed her in the back.it's really hard to find a real friend these days and sometimes i even wonder if they still exist..of course they do,we just have to keep searching.we'll know who our fiends are when we're in a problem.the fake ones would run away when we ask for help..at school,ppl would want to be my friend because i was cosidered a top student.when ppl knew i got straight a's,i was treated differently..i suddenly had tons of friends.asking me to help them in their studies.but when i didn't perform,ppl couldn't care less bout me..only my bestfriends were still there for me..(",)
whatever it is,don't give up.keep on studying and u'll get the hang of it..my father always says that if u fail once,keep trying n trying.one day u'll succeed eventhough slower than others..it doesn't matter..anyway,hope u keep on writing,love to hear more bout u,(",)
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